Day 1: Here and now

I'm thinking about spending about half an hour writing something everyday.

I've lived several decades, but till now I'm still wondering "where have all the years gone to?" In my mind I still think I'm only 25 and am just about to start to enjoy my life...but my body and my soul are all getting old. I wonder why.

It's because I'm always worrying about tomorrow and regretting about yesterday. I rarely live right at this moment.

So now, I'll write something everyday so I know what I've experienced today; to show myself that I've lived this day. I hope it'll help me to focus more on "here and now."

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It's past 10pm now.

Today was a bit boring. And I've been bothered by my physical problem. I felt tired. But I did some meta by scanning through abstracts, and I read the textbook for personality class. Gosh, that is a boring book to read!

In the evening we went to Valentino. That was really a bad decision. We should have gone to Chipotle. At least Sirloin Stockade.

Mike isn't home; he is in Colorado for summer camp and won't come back till this Sat. During the time he's not home, we have much less quarrels; our mind is much more peaceful. And for some reason Ben and Yen seem to be nicer. I think taking away Mike for a week is good for these two kids.

Ben made a lot of clay figures and made a movie under my wife's directions. He enjoyed it a lot, and I'm very happy for him. Without Mike taking away attention, I think we are more likely to find Ben's talents.

I'm aware that I'm too critical. What I have to learn probably is to take it easy; maybe sometimes just let it go. Instead of seeing their messy room, at least I can try to see their smiles first.